Change

Three weeks ago, JJ came home from work and I was in the middle of mopping the kitchen floor. He was trying to talk to me and I was lost in thought. He could tell something was on my mind and I began telling him that I just had a "bad" feeling something was going to change with my calling in our ward. Right now I serve as the CTR 5 teacher, but I could not help but feel weighted down about something. I knew they were reorganizing many of the auxiliary organizations and I was literally feeling anxious about something. The only other time I had this feeling was right before they called me to be a RS teacher two years ago, which at the time I felt was the scariest calling ever! Any way, weeks passed and nothing happened so I wasn't thinking much about it any longer. Until 9:15 Thursday night. I got the call. "Hi Sister Bills! Would you be available to meet with us Saturday morning at the church? We have some things we would like to discuss with you about your calling." The feeling came back. What would it be? There really was something that was going to change! I don't know why I get these feelings, but I think it is Heavenly Father preparing me for change since he knows I don't usually deal with it very well.



Oh how I will miss my little kids in my class. We've had our hard Sundays, but overall, they are the cutest kids ever. I stared teaching them as Sunbeams and they moved me up with them as their CTR teacher this year. I will miss their smiles and excited faces when I see them in Sacrament meeting and in the halls. I will miss their hilarious stories they tell so out of the blue. I don't know why but I will miss continually reminding them that we don't sit backwards and upside down on our chairs showing everyone our underwear. I will miss them sweetly singing primary songs when they think no one is listening. I will miss all of them trying to get my attention at the same time just so I will look at them and love them. I will miss their sweet little prayers. I will miss so much more too. To Matthew, Kaycee, Faith, Amber, and Natalie, I will miss you so much and love you dearly.



Here are a few of the things they have made me over the last little while with them. I will also miss getting these every week. At the top of this one it says "Sister Bills and Faith". She would always say the most grown up things. I love that neither of us have eyes.
These are some 'Pants' made for my by Kaycee. She made them about 4 months ago and today when she saw I still had them she said, "Hey those are the pants I made for you." They remember everything!

Amber made these for me one Sunday and asked me for a few weeks after if I still had them. The first and last ones say things but you can't see them unless you blow up the picture. I love their little gifts of love.

Just as much as I will miss my primary class, I am equally excited about my new calling. I will now be serving as First Counselor to our wonderful Relief Society President. I look forward to building friendships with all of the sisters in our ward that I admire so much but have never had the opportunity to meet with until now. I also look forward to the things I will learn and gain from a leadership calling. I don't consider myself a good leader so this will definitely help develop some traits I currently lack. I know there will be challenges but I also know it is right. It wasn't a "bad" feeling after all. It was a good change about to happen.